He’d been in way too many failed relationships to really allow his jaded heart to open up so freely to anyone anymore. He could kick himself for being such a fucking coward, but even he knew that his intimacy issues went far beyond just being scared.Įven with women it took him a long time to work up to anything really intimate and he never did really seem to get totally satisfied. Sure Avery was cute, and he couldn’t deny the fact that watching him in the shower was a bit arousing, but there was more to sex than just watching. Plus, Rick wasn’t entirely sure that he could be in a sexual relationship with a guy. Was Rick even ready to confess his love to Avery, or willing? Did he want to pursue that type of relationship with him? What if Avery rejected him? There were so many factors to think about, and so many things could go wrong. If Avery did have romantic feelings for Rick, where did that put their relationship? On the other hand, if he didn’t say anything and just let him think that Brian forgot about him, what would that really accomplish? He didn’t even know how Avery felt about him really, if he saw him more than just a friend or not. Telling Avery the truth seemed like giving up but more than that, he was practically pushing Avery into Brian’s arms. Honestly, he had no idea what he was should do.
